As of April 2, 2012, this blog became the place for documenting our New Adventure called Breast Cancer. Basically it's all about our Cancer ParTay.
As of Oct 2013- our 18 month Survivor mark- the ParTay's pretty much over. Treatments are done, my hair is back and I am healthy & cancer-free!
As of today- I want you to know that the trick to living a happy, healthy and wonderful life in the future is to remember where we've been, what we've learned and how much we've been blessed! That's exactly what I hope you find here.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

My "little" bit of cancer!


I have a confession to make- I have been feeling a little bit guilty lately. I have been doing some reading of some Cancer Journey blogs, talked to people who have gone through cancer, seen some pretty horrific pictures on the Internet of Cancer strugglers Survivors and talked to others that have lost someone to cancer. Did you know that cancer can really suck???
The reason I am feeling guilty is because here in my own Cancer Adventure- life is really pretty good. So am I trying to figure out if that's because of my attitude OR because I only have "just a little bit of cancer". Maybe I have no idea what it's like to really have cancer. You can laugh (and let's knock on wood cuz I am very happy with my little bit of cancer and don't wish to have more than I do just to say I've been there- done that) but I do feel like a bit of a fraud saying I am dealing with cancer. Sure- there's a little lump in my right breast of abnormally dividing cells but it is really tiny and hasn't spread anywhere. Sure I am sporting a GI Jane hairdo- but that was my birthday present to myself and self inflicted I might add. Sure I am having Chemo treatments but that's just letting me reinact one of my favorite Vampire movies and nothing that I haven't been able to handle. Sure there are a couple days that I need a few extra naps and someone to bring me lunch and dinner and watch my kids but who can't use that once in a while? And for sure, my friends and I are having way too much fun with all our personal Cancer jokes and delving into the dark pink side! To tell you the truth- this Cancer thing has been a bit more like a ParTay than anything. See how guilt could become a problem?
I have been informed by my Life Coordinator however that saying I have just a little bit of cancer is like someone saying that they are a little bit pregnant. And apparentently "you can NOT be just a little bit pregnant"! LOL
For what it's worth though- I thank God everyday for my "little bit of cancer"!

1 comment:

racefan said...

Shay--you have such a great positive attitude about your new "adventure" that I don't know how you do it:) You are truely an inspiration to me!! Sure miss you!!!!!!!!